At least I know I tried

Dear Amanda

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry it wasn’t me all those years ago. I’m sorry it took all these years for us to meet. I’m sorry it is difficult for me to talk about myself. I’m sorry for trying to explain. I’m sorry for hurting you. I’m sorry for crying in front of you. I’m sorry for reaching out to you. I’m sorry it takes you to make things right. I’m sorry there’s such a difference between us. I’m sorry that you won’t love me again. I’m sorry for not touching your soul. I’m sorry for touching your hand when I hurt. I’m sorry for needing you. I’m sorry for not knowing quite how to say how I feel. I’m sorry that I’m not the same man after my accident. I’m sorry that I don’t live in your world. I’m sorry that I am so fucked up in the head. I’m sorry that I know I won’t ever find another like you, because there is no other like you. I’m sorry that you were the one. I’m sorry they won’t love you the way I will. I’m sorry that everything you thought I was was falling apart right in front of you.

I’m sorry that you cant see the good in me. Because I know everything i did pushed you away.

I’m not sorry for loving you. At least I can say that I tried.

Love you always…